I'm Going To Let Him Tell You...

And he's VERY excited about it.  :)  In case you can't read his shirt, it says he is going to be a big brother.  That's right.  Pregnant.  Holy shit.

I had been testing everyday and on Saturday morning I got a VERY faint shadow of a line.  But a line is a line is a line, right?  I had The Ex and my mom look at it and they both most definitely saw a line.  So I was pretty confident.  One might say a little too confident...

So this morning when I woke up (at 5:45am, mind you) I peed again and fully expected to see a darker line.  But I didn't.  There didn't seem to be a line at all.  I couldn't believe it.  I went back and looked at yesterday's test to compare and there was definitely a line there yesterday and if you turned the test in the right direction...and the light was hitting it just right...there might be a line on today's test.  But it was most definitely lighter than the one yesterday.  Is it going away already?  Had it only been there for a day?  Holy crap.  I layed in bed and lamented the fact that I had gotten cocky.  Yesterday after 3 different people confirmed seeing a line I went online and ordered a bouquet of flowers to be delivered to my Dad and my step mom with a card that read, "Congratulations, you are going to be grandparents...AGAIN!!"  Those flowers are set to be delivered on Monday.  So I layed in bed and tried to figure out how I could cancel the damn flowers and how I had let myself get so cocky and stupid.  Damn line.  Totally foiled me.

So after about 2 hours of doing this, I decided to pee on another stick.  Why I didn't do this earlier, I guess I just didn't see the point.  Plus in my head I had peed on Saturday at around 10:00am so I thought if I waited until that apparently "magic time" again, then maybe the line would miraculously show up.  But most of all, I just didn't want to be disappointed.  I knew if I tested again and there really wasn't a line, then I was screwed.  Two tests couldn't be wrong.

My mom and step dad had bought me a package of 4 tests at Cost.co yesterday.  It was one of those tests that I had used this morning.  So I dug out the last of the tests that I had bought at the pharmacy last week (I read the expiration dates on them to know which one was from which batch) and used that one.  I left the bathroom for the appointed 3 minutes, and even gave it an extra couple of minutes for good measure.  Then I went in to check.

There was my line.  It was definitely there, and it was definitely darker than the one from yesterday.  Thank God!!  I was so relieved and I vowed right then and there to not take any moment of this pregnancy for granted.  Since then I have gotten more tests from the pharmacy and I used one of my new ones and one of the Cost.co ones with the same batch of pee.  The Cost.co one was WAY lighter than the other one.  My mom later told me that they didn't realize it when they bought it but when they got home they realized that the package of tests had been opened and then taped shut again.  But all 4 tests were there, and they are individually wrapped so I have no idea what happened.  My line now shows up on the Cost.co tests as well, but it is just not nearly as dark as the other tests.

So I guess I don't have to cancel the flowers.  I told my brother and my sister in law today.  People are shocked.  NO ONE except my mom knew that I was even thinking of doing this.  So it is coming as quite a surprise.  Add into that the fact that I am recently single and I think people's major reaction is, "What the hell is she thinking?"  But I don't care.  I know what I was thinking.  This child was planned for months and months and months and couldn't possibly be more wanted.  Now I just have to get it here.  Tomorrow I will call my OB and go in for a blood test.  I am not sure of the protocol here.  Last time I got pregnant, I was with the REI department, so I had several blood tests to check BETA's and an ultrasound every two weeks.  I know that isn't going to happen here, but I am not sure what is.  I mean, do they just call with confirmation of ONE blood test and say, "We'll see you when you're 12 weeks along?"  Cause that just really isn't going to work for me.  At the very least, I need at least a couple of blood tests to make sure numbers are doubling and stuff.

So, as of now, we are pregnant.  Holy shit.  And yesterday The Boy peed on the potty 4 different times in like 20 minutes.  Big things are happening in the long haul household.  Big things indeed.  :)