The baby passed her NST pretty easily today. I think this is the first time I haven't heard the words "pass" along with "by the skin of her teeth" together in all of her tests. So that is another good thing.
The only not-so-good thing is my contractions. Both my nurse and my doctor made a joke about how the baby probably passed her test so easily because my damn contractions aren't letting her get her beauty sleep (as she usually does during the NST's). Obviously I am aware of them. They have gotten considerably worse since Saturday of last weekend and last night they woke me out of a sound sleep at least 5 times. They have only gotten to the point where I would characterize them as "hurting" within the last 24 hours or so. But when I was hooked up to the NST machine it was very apparent that I was having pretty strong contractions about every 4 minutes or so. They asked me if I could feel them (yes, I could) but I wasn't having to "breathe through them" yet so I guess that is a good thing. My doctor prescribed a medicine (I haven't picked it up yet from the pharmacy so I don't know the name off the top of my head) to make them stop. I am to take it every 6 hours when I am feeling contractions but don't have to take it if I am not feeling anything. Hopefully that will keep my body from going into labor on its own, although neither my nurse nor my doctor looked overly convinced of that. I am also basically supposed to be flat on my back doing nothing but drinking fluids.
Have I mentioned lately how much fun this entire process has been? Good lord...
I have to say that the one scenario that I simply did not even assume was a possibility was the concept that my body would actually go into labor on its own. What the hell? I am going to be SO pissed if I end up in labor. I know I am getting the c-section and obviously if I end up in the hospital they won't make me suffer through labor, but man. If I am having contractions that hurt enough to make me take my ass to the hospital I am going to be so pissed. Or if my water breaks on its own? Gross! These are things that I had not even planned for considering that even if by some fluke of imagination I made it to my 38 week scheduled c-section, my body should most certainly NOT go into labor on its own before that. How very rude.
For some reason, even though today's appointment went relatively well, I have lost my cherub-like demeanor. I am cranky and tired and nervous and just on edge. Everything and everyone is irritating me and I am so beyond done with physically feeling like shit. You add these lovely contractions to my extreme exhaustion, my "laser light shows" that I see every 15 minutes, my lack of sleep, my nausea, my heart burn, my head aches and basically overall feeling like I have a horrible case of the flu and, well...I guess you get a very cranky person. I want everyone to go away and leave me the hell alone and I want to crawl up in a little ball and just cry for a while. But I can't. Right now I am going to put my precious little boy down for his nap and I am going to lay my own ass down and hope that when I get up again I will have a better view/attitude with this entire thing. Cause right now? I am just plain done with this shit.