It's so ironic that I fought so hard to get to this point (I am 36 weeks today) and now all I want is for this to be over. I completely understand that having a healthy baby is the priority and therefore it is best to keep her "cooking" as long as possible. But I am miserable. Seriously miserable. I have a cold, I am having totally uncomfortable (but apparently unproductive) contractions like every 5 minutes that make me feel like I am having the worst period of my life, the baby is sitting so low that I can't even pee without feeling like I am bending her head in half and that happens every 45 minutes when I have to pee. I can't take a deep breath. Every single bone in my body aches and I feel like I am going to pass out if I stand up for more than 5 minutes, but sitting down is horribly uncomfortable as well. Completely and totally miserable. And so unbelievably DONE with being pregnant. But I get it. If there isn't a medical reason to deliver this baby then she shouldn't be delivered. And I understand that. And I will suffer through this as long as I have to because I want a healthy baby. But I am cranky and tired and haven't slept and just want to not feel this way anymore. And I have almost a full two weeks left. Because OF COURSE I am going to make it to my scheduled c-section. Because frankly the thought of two more weeks of this makes me cry. Seriously. So now I am off to cry.
Will muster up some cheerfulness soon...I swear... Sorry to you all for being such a downer.